Saturday, March 10, 2012

I Think I Want to Stay Pregnant Forever

I feel so bad for those people who don't enjoy or feel indifferent about being pregnant. I love it more than I could have ever imagined and I can only hope the same for my sisters. Unfortunately, one complication of this feeling is that I'm not that eager to have our little one actually come out. I hear others saying "Oh, I can't wait to meet our little one and hold her in our arms..." blah, blah, blah. I'm not there (yet?).

I know I have about 2 months to go so I could totally change my mind, but there are so many wonderful things about carrying this little being inside me that I will miss terribly because, as a whole, it can't be re-created.

The best things about being pregnant include:
  • Bruce helps me with groceries when he knows I've been to the store!
  • Bruce takes out the garbage cans without me asking!
  • Bruce will run off or take me with him to satisfy any urge or craving I may have without hesitation!
  • I get to be with the baby 24 hours a day! 
  • The emotional connection Bruce and I shared when we went to her ultrasounds. 
  • The first time I felt the baby move. 
  • Someone to do morning stretches with me in bed. 
  • I can hug my baby anytime I want. 
  • I feel empowered that my body is capable of creating a life.
  • Sharing everything I learn and feel with my family who seem to love to hear about it.
  • Did I mention I get to be with the baby ALL the time!
  • Seeing and hearing the baby's heartbeat. 
  • Watching the baby's ultrasound video. 
  • Imagining her little personality (I think she'll be like Bruce when it comes to interacting with 'the unknown', but I hope she can be cuddly like me)
  • Figuring out where her tastes are coming from ~ Bruce: coke, fried fish, french fries, pasta ~ Me: spicy foods, oranges, oatmeal ~ Her: ice cream, yogurt, salad
  • Discovering how different her movement feels as she continues to grow (floppy guppy, tiny ninja kicks, popcorn jabs and kicks, slithery movements and smooth turns ~ what are the next 2 months going to be like?)
  • Finding out she likes to stick her bum out my stomach at night!
  • Feeling specific body parts
  • Knowing I have the most amazing partner (yes, Bruce) to share all this with. (I can't say enough about how much Bruce's support and love and kindness has been throughout the entire pregnancy).
The good things about being pregnant include:
  • Everyone is happier around me. 
  • Everyone is happy for us. 
  • I get complimented constantly (great clothes, cute pregnant lady, you're all belly, cute baby bump)
  • I get to talk about the baby all the time because everyone is always asking how it's going.
  • People give me allowances for being a bit spacy or slower.
  • Sharing experiences with Ryan ~ whether he's eager or not!
  • Leggings! 
  • I get to eat extra - I'm supposed to gain weight! 
  • I actually like the look of my pregnant belly (which I didn't think I would)
The "eh" things about being pregnant (but wouldn't trade for anything):
  • Finding clothes that stay comfortable all day. 
  • Wearing clothes that don't ride up and show my belly or stick out funny. 
  • Pains (charlie horses, lower back pain, hip pain, carpal tunnel)
  • Unwanted opinions (what I want may be different from what you would do so don't try to bully me to your side because it's ok to be different!)
  • Nausea, exhaustion, extreme hunger (nothing worse than finding you've eaten all the food you planned for the day and having to figure out a way to get more!), difficulty eating more than a snack size portion when you're starving
  • Registering ~ just like for our wedding, we just don't enjoy such things. 
  • The worst ~ thinking about the $$$. 'Nough said about that. Blech.
So, there are few things that I probably won't miss but those are easily forgotten. There are so many more things I already know I will miss. I feel like I should stop being so selfish - I'm sure Bruce wants to meet her, get to know her and spend as much time with her as he can. I want him to have that too. I'm trying to mentally prepare myself for the day she finally arrives so I can not only have loved being pregnant, but I can look forward to loving all the difficulties (gotta be a realist) and joys that we'll find happens when we bring our little girl home. If not, I guess I'll just stay pregnant until I'm ready :) 

1 comment:

Brittany said...

I love that you love this so much. It is so fun to be a part of it too :)