Walking "Mombie"

I love Mia, I really and truly do. She is very lucky that this is a truth. Very lucky.

I hate today thanks to my little bug waking up. She will wake up frequently, but last night takes the cake. Apparently 11pm on a work night = time to party  for Mia. Since she was awake and I couldn't get her to sleep using ANY of my tricks, I decided to change her so her diaper was only 5 lbs in the morning, rather than her usual 10 lbs. When I went into her room, she got all excited because she saw all the toys she had been playing with that I left on the floor. Oh boy.

I left the lights on low and then turned them off when I heard her giggle. I bounced her back to sleep (yes, bounced, we're back to that again for some terrible reason) and gently laid her down. One...Two...Cry!!!! Ok, here we go again, rocked to sleep..one...two...Cry!!! Ok, I give up, hang out in your crib, little one, and enjoy your rainforest show, courtesy of Nana. I'm laying on the floor and going to sleep.

Ok, it was kind of cute lookin up to see her peeking down at me from the bars in her crib. What the heck, though?! She loves that thing but she'd rather look at me. More crying. She can see mommy but just can't get to her! I "rescue" the princess and lull her back to sleep again. The pacifier drops out, the arm lays limp sprawled out and she looks so peaceful. Oh, my precious baby, I think we can finally sleep. In case she wakes up I choose to sleep on the floor next to her crib all cuddled together. She's beautiful when she sleeps. Uh, oh! My arm's falling asleep. I'll just geeeently put her down. Oh no! She's wiggling! Stop! Stop! Take a paci! Do it! Please, stay asleep!!!! ......Cry!!!! I failed again. I've given up. She wants to play. We'll play. Why not? It's almost 1am and it seems like a great thing to do. Maybe it'll stretch out my aching back from all the bouncing, rocking and cradling I've done.

Down to the living room we go! Wait. Mia's mad at me? What? She wanted to play but all of a sudden she has decided that I am the one forcing her to play?! I'm trying to keep her quiet because Bruce has to get up ealry. He asked if I wanted help but I said "no" because I was giving in. Now that I've given in, she wants nothing to do with playing. I can't win. I hated to do, but I did it. I nursed her to sleep (which didn't work when she woke up the first time 2 hours earlier). Ok, she looked blissfully asleep. Now, what should I do? Should I stay in the man chair? No. Should I move to the couch and recline it? No. Should I move to her bedroom? Ok, I have a pillow and a blanket and I was able to put her down but kept her close so she would be less likely to wake up. Victory? Wait for it.....ok, she's still asleep after 20 minutes. Time for me to try to sleep too.

Cue 3am. Can you break your muscles in your back. I'm pretty sure the spine is intact since I didn't collapse into a lumpy heap when I stood up. The pain could only be from breaking muscles, right? Ok, another decision. Should I risk moving her for my comfort which may be foiled by her waking up? 15 minutes after trying to get more comfortable, which was IMPOSSIBLE on a wooden floor (except for an infant, of course), I decided it was worth the risk. I had to shove that blasted paci in her face once but it popped right back out once she got all snuggly with me in our bed (after poking Bruce to move over - he thought he could just move right into the center!). Ahhh. She slept and slep and slept. If I didn't have to go to work this morning, I think  she would have slept in. She'd be a tired girl after her late night in all.

When I did wake her, she was all grumpy about it. Really? Whatever.


My darling didn't stop there though. She blew out in the car. Again. Why do I even bother dressing her. She was super cute today too ...oh, sorry "beary cute" with a bow and everything. What am I supposed to do? Drive her around so she can poop so I can go someplace with her dressed without getting poop everywhere? I may have to. This may also have been the reason she didn't sleep well earlier in the night. Or it could be because she's 4 months old and onery. Who knows.

I tried to add some funny cartoons but I'm at work and my work browser is ancient. Maybe I can add the cartoons when I get home. Or not. I wake at 5am to work 7-5:30 and I get home between 6:15-6:30 (depending on whether I have to feed Mia before we leave daycare or not). I have to clean bottles, pump parts, pack my lunch, cook dinner, eat dinner, get Mia in a bath today but usually do bedtime routine of lotion/massage, nakey time and playing, pj's, read a book, sleep sack on, say good night to daddy, nurse Mia, sing lullabies and pray she stays alseep til morning, take a quick shower, get her milk ready for the next day, pack my bags and then collapse into bed between 8:30-9:30, depending on how difficult it is to get Mia to sleep and to stay asleep.